& patterns die slow... (because) you didn't know that when you grabbed him by the scruff of HIS neck 1, 2, 9, 25 years old you reached into the present day and left your red hand marks on mine you didn't know that your one-time abuse your temper thrown tone (scraping in my ears like heavy metal screams) would be the angry echoed yell banging on walls adorned with family photos, printed monet paintings, & good luck fortune scrolls (from nails your legacy dangles like vertical paper diaries folded into knuckles and teeth.. your work, a porcelain bowl's glaze dripping and crackling, reaching perfection long after the artist has died.. ..) you didn't know that your scolding, frustrated strikes would become the things on the dresser my dad pushed to the ground, burning holes in the carpet like a coal left on wax: grandfather-shaped depressions i fell into.. you didn't know that the bruise on my soul would become the pain in my girlfriend's smile the shaken ground upon which i walk long days of occasional parent fights going to sleep with a twisted stomach 4 generations ago, one carried abuse passed down from father to son to son to son a pattern that bleeds into my present the history that speaks and repeats and repeats and repeats and repeats until it is heard once and for all.
In Ancient China, potters adorned their ceramics with glazes that were meant to reach crackled “perfection” generations after they had died, achieving the desirable glassy blue-greens and “robin’s egg” hue. Lined with intentional cracks, this style of artwork entailed the use of a specific glaze that would gradually drip from the rims of clay bowls and settle at the bottom.
This is fantastic, I love this, you’re a very good writer and I think the layout of the poem is very cool also, Well done! :)
Madison, thank you so much. I really dug deep into my past to get this one out.
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